well have you need to get married first buddy

I sort of know the feeling, but I’m a girl. As a teenager, my hormones are triggering my lust and I really, really want a romantic life, like in some animes. Loyal boyfriend to talk to, going to amusement parks, having beautiful love made to me on a comfy bed, that type of thing. But I’m very, very shy and “give out an aura similar to a timid bunny”, as my mum says. Even with that, I tend to be very cold and cruel to the boys for some reason, probably to see which boy is determined enough to catch my heart. Being a girl sucks sometimes >.<